Title: A Letter from Buffy
Author: Dee
Rating: PG-13 (angsty)
Summary: not gonna tell
Spoilers: The Gift
Distribution: My sites, All others, just let me know where it is going, it makes me feel are warm and fuzzy inside.
Disclaimers: Not my characters, never were and never will be, what a sad thought.
Dedication: Feedback: Pretty please, it is so encouraging to know, others like your hard work
E-mail: Bestd123@aol.com
Pairing: B/G

Giles sat alone in his apartment, sipping his drink. He was glad to be alone, time to beable to sort through his own personal struggles. Internally he felt like a half of him, had been ripped apart. Buffy was gone. He ran out of time. There was so much to tell her, and now, he never would beable to. The mail had piled up on his counter. He knew he needed to go through it, but he had been busy still trying to reach Hank and then having to handle Buffy's funeral arrangements. He began to sort through the mail, when he noticed an envelope with Buffy's writing and her return address. He took another drink and sat down to open and read the letter.

Dear Giles,

Well, if you are getting this letter that means Dawn did as I asked and mailed it out, because I am no longer here. Either Glory got the best of me and you and the gang managed to keep the portal from opening or, I sacrificed myself to save Dawn.

I have thought long and hard about this. I cannot let anything happen to Dawn. Which brought me to this conclusion. When I was told that Death is my gift I began to think I am exactly what Dracula, said, a Killer, that I am darkness and a heartless killer. I realized now that I was wrong, because if that is who I am, then I would have killed Dawn to keep Glory from using her. That is not who I am. Therefore, if it comes down to it, I will give up myself for her.

I know, you probably do not like reading this. You may even disagree with me, but I cannot become a killer. If Death is my gift, then let it be that My Death is a gift to Dawn and this world.

Knowing that I may never come out alive of this fight with Glory, I realized I have some regrets. Mainly that I have probably hurt you, and never let you know how terribly sorry I am. My biggest regret is not letting you know how much I love you. Nor did I ever let you know that I was not jealous that Olivia was taking time away from me, but that she was with you and not me. I cannot believe I am sharing this with you, but it is amazing what you can say when you think you will never have a chance to say it. Giles, I had decided if we survive this fight with Glory that I would tell you, I loved you and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and only you. You are more then a watcher and a friend, you are my best friend, the very trust worthiest of friends, you are my confident, you are my pillar. I need you and never want to be without you. I want to know what it is like to be held in your arms and cherished by you. I want to know your touch, your kiss. Now I realize if your are reading this, that this will never happen, but I want you to know, how important you are to me and how much I do appreciate all that you have done.

Well, I guess this is good-bye. I love you.
Buffy

The letter fell free from Giles' hands as his head collapsed into is hands and he allowed himself to cry some more. He was crying so hard , he almost missed the knock at the door. At first he did not want to answer it, but figured it would be best to let whoever it is know that he needs to be alone some more.

Giles stood there, shocked speechless, when he saw her. She frowned at his tears and wiped one away.

"I am real. not a ghost or a hallucination." Buffy tried to comfort Giles. Giles stepped back letting her in, still disbelieving his very own eyes. "It is a long story, if you want to hear it." Buffy offered then noticing her letter on the floor she looked up at Giles, "um... well it seems my reward for sacrificing my life is that I get it back, but I can explain it later. I think we have other things we need to talk about."

Giles looked down at Buffy, "No Luv, no talking. I lost you once, I am not going to bloody hell waste anymore time" Buffy full of hope smiled up at her watcher, who returned her smile with a kiss. He held Buffy against him, never wanting to let go of her, in fear he might lose her again.

"I love you." Buffy said, with her head resting against his chest listening to his heart beat.

"I love you, and don't you ever do anything like that again!" Giles said pullign Buffy even closer to him.

Buffy chuckled and kissed him, to reassure him she was here and not going anywhere.

The End