Title: Listen to Your Heart
Author: Nicole (slay4you1978)
Rating: K+
Pairing: Giles/Buffy
Summary: Buffy has an epiphany while listening to a song
Spoilers: up to season 6
Distribution: If you want it you can have it, just let me know where it goes
Feedback: a must, without it I can't go on.
Authors Notes: This came to me at 2am and wouldn't leave me alone.
Listen to Your heart is originally by Roxette, but remade by DHT.

I sit in my room listening to the radio; I'm pretty upset right now. Giles told me he was going to England. Something about 'Standing on my own'. That makes the five guys who just leave. Makes me wonder what is wrong with me? Am I a bad person? I don't know anymore. Ever since they pulled me out of heaven, I have been a complete mess. Just going through the motions not really caring. I was happy and at peace until they disturbed my much needed rest. I was done finished I knew everyone was okay, but they had to be selfish.

The only thing that made it better was Giles. When I saw him in the Magic Box, it was like no one else was there. He made being back bearable even just for a little while. I know I leaned on him for everything, but he is my rock the calming of my storm. The other half of me.

"You are listening to WSDR Sunnydale's number one pop station. This next song is dedicated to Slay girl you know who you are from red Wicca. 'Don't let him go'. Here is the new old one 'Listen to Your Heart' by DHT"

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark

Leave it to Willow to try and decipher how I feel. I don't even now how she knows, even though I really don't know what to feel.

(Chorus)

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

He has always been there form me through my first death to the second one. Always giving me strength or a helping hand when needed. I took him for granted. Being selfish Buffy again.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

Giles has always been there, helping me fight the good fight. He never asked for anything in return. He gave me nothing but support and love. When I ran away he was the only one to say 'Welcome Home Buffy' while everyone else ragged on me.

(Chorus)

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before....

I was so jealous of his relationship with Olivia. 'I wanted it to be me standing there in his shirt.' Okay where the hell did that thought come from? I did the only thing I could do. I called him 'Old and gross'. When he was actually looking kinda sexy with that Hugh Heffner robe. It was at that moment he was a man and not just a watcher. I put my foot in it that day. He came to my aid again to help with Sunday, but she was already dead.

And there are voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind

I loved going to his apartment, it was like a second home. A source of comfort when my own house became to much. With him gone, my sense of comfort is gone. I've seen many sides to him and I love then all. 'Wait love?' where did that thought come from? When he was Ripper, and to the god who used magicks to help me defeat Amy's mom. He never looked so damn delectible. 'Delectible' okay I have been around Anya for too long.

(Chorus)

Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before oh...

I will miss his gentle eyes and the way he radiated his emotions. I continue listening to this song. It's like it is actually speaking to me. I saw the anguish he went through after I died. I watched him from heaven as he tried to go through day to day life. I heard his heart calling out to me, but I wasn't there to return that call. That saddens me a little, to know how much he loved me, but never had the chance to tell me.

(Chorus)

Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart (take a listen to it)
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

I guess that's why I shut him out a little. I didn't want to deal with the way he felt for me. The song finished and it dawned on me, I love him! Not in the way a daughter loves her father, but the way I loved Angel. I have always been in love with him, but things kept getting in the way. I didn't want to deal with those new found feelings. I will not let him leave without telling him how I feel. I slip on my shoes open my door, and run out the house.

I run all the way to his apartment, vampires be damned I was no a mission. No one was going to stop me. I find his door unlocked and walked right in. "Giles" I yell out. He comes running sown the steps with concern.

"Buffy, is everything alright every one okay?"

He stands there looking at me with such affection. "No Giles everything is not alright."

He was about to say something, bit I stopped him.

"Hear me out before you say anything." I begin pacing.

"Giles I love you! I have been in love with you since the beginning. I was scared, and didn't know what to make of those feelings. I mean Traver's did tell you 'You had a father's love for me.' I think that is complete and udder bullshit!! While in heaven I realized you loved me more than that. I watched you." A blush creeps to my face. "Then tonight it dawned on me no pun intended, that I am head over hills, crazy in love with you. You are the other half of me, you make me complete and without you I am not whole. I am empty like my world is gone."

I stopped pacing and looked at him. Waiting to see what he had to say.

"Oh my darling girl I have loved you for so long. I was willing to go to the end of the earth and back for you. I never expected you to feel the same way."

He enveloped me into a hug. "What do we do now?" I ask with tears running down my cheeks. "My sweet beautiful Buffy I am going to cancel my flight. We have much to talk about. I love you that won't ever change."

I knew that everything was going to be alright. Thank you Will for the song, and I am finally going to listen to my heart.

Fin