Title: Her Tears Fell Like Rain 3/5
Author: Savage
Paring: B/G
Rating: um bad? *eg*
"Buffy?"
"Surprise"
"Y-Yes indeed" Giles mumbled as he stepped down from the stairs and looked in Buffy's direction. He couldn't see her features or her expression, but from her voice, he could tell how she was feeling.
"Nice place Mr. Giles"
Ouch. She Was mad. Using Mr. Giles instead of Giles (say a prayer ol boy, your going to need it).
"Buffy-"
"I see you kept everything from downstairs. Even the Weapons chest" Which She was now standing near and ran her hand along the oak. "Lord knows why though"
"I-Im Sorry?"
"Are you?"
"Am I? Buffy, I done know-"
"I mean why would u need it now? Right?"
"Buffy-"
"Cause u were supposed to be in England. For the last THREE months. So why would u need this here if you are supposed to be there?!"
"Buffy I understand-"
"No You DON'T! You don't understand anything at all Giles!!!"
Buffy wasn't quite sure why she was so angry now. She just knew that he had hurt her so very much and he was acting as if he did nothing wrong!
"Buffy, Please, let me-"
"You lied to me!"
"yes, I-I know I did, But-"
"Are you sick?"
"S-Sick? Uh, n-no, no I'm not sick. Why do you -"
"So, your not like dying or anything?"
"Dying? Good Lord I hope not. Why? What did u hear?"
Giles said with a grin, trying to lighten the mood. he should have know better.
"Good, Then I can do this"
In the next few seconds Buffy was in front of him and before he knew it, her hand mark was a stinging sensation across his jaw. His face felt like it was on fire from the slap as he rubbed the spot tenderly. The he tasted his own blood on the inside of his mouth. (Dear Lord, you really blew it with her Rupert, and ... ouch).
Giles looked at Buffy in totally shock as he watched emotions swimming across her eyes. And Again before he knew what was going on, and lord knows he never expected it, Buffy kissed him. Hard.Fast.And Full of Passion. The kiss went on for what seemed like an entirely before Giles gave into what he thought was a delusion from being slapped so hard from his Slayer, and Kissed her back.
Except when he did, Buffy pulled away.
She looked sad, hurt, and then angry. Buffy turned from him and headed towards the door. Giles shook the clouds of confusion from his mind and grabbed her before she could leave.
"Buffy, wait please!"
"Let go of me!"
"Please, Buffy, Wait. I need, we need to talk-"
"No, we really don't. You lied to me Giles. In more than one way. If you wanted away from me so badly, you should have just told me! Not made up-"
"I never wanted away form you!"
"No? Really? Then, what the hell do u call all of this?!!!"
"Surviving"
"What?"
"Buffy, please, shut the bloody door and talk to me"
Buffy looked at him, defiance in her eyes. Giles moved beside her and shut the door then stood in front of it.
"I'll move you if I have to"
"I have no doubt that you would. But all I am asking of u is for a few moments of your time. You can at least give me that"
"Like you did for me?"
"That's Not Fair"
"Oh your One to talk about fair!"
"What the bloody hell is that to mean?"
"It means you lied to me GILES! Why couldn't You just tell me you wanted out?!"
"Buffy, I told you that was NOT my reason for leaving-"
"Leaving? What Leaving? Who's left? Cause from what I can tell, YOU sure haven't! You just lied and pretended to!!"
"Its not like that Buffy-"
"I loved you! I really did. I just didn't know how to tell u that. And then u go and-"
"I think calling me old and gross was not the way to go"
"I was young and stupid. Can u please drop that all ready! I said I was sorry months ago for that!"
"Right, sure you did"
"I did!"
"Really? To who?"
Buffy growled as she stepped closer to the door only to have Giles grab her and hold her by her arms.
"Oh no you don't, not this time Buffy! Your staying here and we having this out!"
"Let go of me Giles!"
"Or what? You'll hurt me?"
"I would never-"
"Yes you would. You have"
A look of confusion and hurt flashed across Buffy's face as she stilled in his hands and narrowed her eyes at him.
"What are you talking about?!"
"Buffy, the point is, I have Hurt u and u have hurt me more times than I can count-"
"I never meant to!"
"And neither did I. Buffy I may be 46 years old, but that doesn't mean I don't make mistakes. That I don't handle certain situations badly. Very badly as the case may be. And did u just say u loved me?"
Buffy looked at him for a moment like he lost his mind.
"Right, Sorry u meant love as in, um, a friends love-"
"Would a friend kiss you like I did?"
"Olivia would-"
"I DO NOT want to know that!"
"Sorry"
Giles let go of Buffy as she looked at him and sighed.
"K, so now u know. I love you. I'm in love with you, Now u can run away like the others"
"Run...Buffy is that what u thought I was doing?"
"It sure seemed like it"
"Oh, Buffy. Luv, No. No, I would NEVER, ever so that to you-"
"Yeah, well, expect for that u did"
"but, It wasn't like that. Buffy I left-"
"U didn't leave!"
"Fine, all right, I pretended to leave because you were going down a deadly path!"
"What? OF Loving you to much?"
"No, Buffy, If I had know how much u truly loved me, then I never would have left. Which would have hurt you even more in the end..."
"Huh?"
" you weren't handling things. I was. everytime something popped up it got thrown to me-"
"Well, geez! I'm sorry for dying on ya there Giles, but It wasn't like-"
"that isn't what I meant"
Giles voice lowered and water collected behind his eyes at the mention of her death. So many nights after her death he nearly let himself join her. Fearing to face this world alone, without her.
"I'm Sorry-"
"No, no its all right. Your Right, I handled this whole situation rather badly. I should have told you I was still here and that-"
"Why are you still here?"
" because, I couldn't leave you. No matter how much I knew it was for your own good. So you could grow and learn how to handle things on your own...I just, I couldn't get on that plane and walk out of your life"
"And yet, u did"
"No Buffy. I didn't. I'm still here"
"u still lied to me Giles! I thought... I missed you so much Giles. Do you even know How much?"
"I think Spike helped you a little in-"
"Don't!"
"Well, am I right or-"
"He was all I had! There was no one else! The one person I loved and trusted my life to completely was gone! Or I thought He was"
"I'm not judging you Buffy. I-"
"You know, u actually did prove one thing to me"
"Oh?"
"yeah, you reminded me that no matter what happens, the only one I can count on, is myself. Now move Giles. I wanna go home"
Sighing, Giles lowered his head and closed his eyes. Why were things so hard in his life? Why did everything always have to be such a sodding struggle?! Taking a breath Giles opened his eyes and looked at Buffy. He had lied to her. Let her Down. Why was he fighting for this? He should have know better than to ever let himself believe They ever had a chance together. And though she kissed him as he had always wished for, always prayed for, he knew Buffy was only confused and not thinking clearly.
With his voice horse with emotion, Giles agreed as he stepped out of her way...
"Your right.Goodbye Buffy "
He walked past her and up the stairs to the bathroom. Shutting the door behind him. he leaned his weary head back against the hard oak and closed his eyes.