Title: Her Tears Fell Like Rain 5/5
Author: Savage
Paring: B/G
Rating: um bad? *eg*
Notes: for milkie , that the only reason I wrote this ;-) and YEESH! Mikie!
this was only suppose to be 3 parts!!!
Buffy's words stung Giles. He stepped away from her and turned his back to her. She was right. He did all those things. He lied to her, he stuck a needle in her, poisoning her, rendering her defenseless, while almost getting her mother and her killed.
"I'm, I need to finish my shower"
Giles started back to the bathroom as Buffy grabbed him
"Oh no you don't! If I have to open up and live, so do u Mister!"
"Buffy, please. your right. I'm a horrible watcher and a terrible friend"
"That's, that isn't what I said!"
"No, it isnt,but its the truth"
"God, Giles why cant u just say to me what it is your feeling! right now! This moment!"
Giles lifted his head and looked at Buffy.
"Love.sadness.Regreat"
"I, what?"
Giles took a seat on the bed and stared at his folded hands across his lap.
"I, I missed you so very much Buffy. I thought, I truly thought that by leaving, or letting you think that I was gone, it would do u well. And I was right. It did. You stood on your own, took charge. Got a job.You did it all. And I am so very proud of you for it all"
"But?"
"but, I think in process, I may have lost you"
"Lost me? Giles, I'm right here"
"Physically, yes"
Chuckling Buffy answered.
"Well, I was never really a mental kind of gal Giles"
Giles looked up at her as she saw his sad eyes.
"I thought, that when you died, I wouldn't be able to face the day without you"
Tears formed in his eyes as Buffy stepped closer to him. He never showed anyone, most of all her, how badly he was hurting.
"But I was wrong. It wasn't only the day. It was the night as well. They were so long and just seemed to drag on forever. I keep wishing, I just wanted something to happen to me. I wanted to be with you so badly that I didn't care how it happened or how panful it was. As long as it did and you and I were together again"
"Oh Giles. Didn't you tell anyone how you were feeling? They could have helped you"
Buffy kneeled in front of her watcher and stroked his hand.
"No" he said with a said smile" I was to busy consoling them, to worry of my own grief"
"Giles..."
"I love you Buffy. Totality, completely, and forever as this heart beats in my chest, I love you"
Tears sprinkled the Slayers eyes as she stood and straddled her watchers Lap. Drawling a surprised gasp from him.
"Now see, was that so hard? that was all you had to do. Tell me how you were feeling. Let me in"
"If you let me"
"always"
"then same here"
Giles leaned into his Slayer and took her into a kiss that made her head spin. Many moments later they pulled apart and smiled at one another.
"Buffy, may I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"Why were you so angry tonight. With me. When You first got here"
Buffy tenderly touched the bruise that was now forming on his cheek and sighed
"Cause I thought I had lost you forever. And then, there you were. My everything was back. Only, my everything lied to me. And hurt me more than anyone on this earth ever could"
Giles answered with thick, raw, and untouched emotion in his now raspy voice
"A simple, because you were an asshole would have been serfiece"
Buffy laughed, a loud, good, whole hearted laugh that filled his heart with Joy.
"Yup that's my Giles"
"And you, are my Buffy"
"yeah, your Buffy. That sounds nice"
"yes it does. Rather nice actually"
"hey Giles?"
"hmmm?" he answered as he nipped and licked his way down her throat with his tongue. "Why did you keep the apartment downstairs?"
Giles stopped for a moment and looked at Buffy.
"Sentimental reason"
"Really?"
"Of course. That place holds some of my most precious moments of my life with you. how could I give that up?"
A warmth of love filled Buffy as she asked...
"you wanna finish that shower now?"
"More than anything"
"Even more than me?"
"I could never want anything more than you"
The End