Title: Choices 3/21
Author: Tori Deathangel
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: B/G
Disclaimer: Joss/Mutant enemy owns it all, I just split the universe
for a sec so they can come and play
Distribution: Anyone who wants it… take it
Jenny was sitting in front of him, "Hey Sexy Fuddy Duddy."
"Jenny!"
"Before you get to excited, think about where I am now. Are you still happy to see me?"
His smile faltered, "I'm sorry, God, I should be happy to see you, but if I do that means…."
She caressed his cheek, "That you're dead."
He looked on through the room and saw Buffy weeping uncontrollably, "Oh god no. I failed you again." He hung his head in shame. He felt a hand come around his shoulder.
"You have never failed her."
"How can you be so sure, look at what I've done to her."
She looked him in the eyes and smoothed his hair away; "She loves you Rupert, look at her. Do you think that she could feel that you failed her. You never have. You were destined to be together. She loves you. Feel her thoughts, look into her heart."
He looked at her and felt her slip around him… or actually himself looking through her eyes. He saw everything they had been through, good and bad, how she always looked at him, no matter what she has always loved him, and even more now. She felt the words she wanted to tell him before this mess started and he cried for the loss. He can't even comfort her. He felt all the things she wanted to do with him. ALL THE THINGS. She never thought she could feel that way about him. Now he'll never be able to explore their life together, never marry her, and raise children. His heart fell heavy with all the would've could'ves and should'ves.
"Are you ready to come home?"
"Of course not. I don't want to leave her. Oh Jenny. I've fucked up so bad. I love her so much."
"I know Rupert."
The light grew more intense.
"Its time Rupert……" her words became broken and not complete, "goodbye. It's for the best."
He looked back at Jenny, "Buffy, I'm so sorry I never got a chance to tell you, how I really feel about you. You mean so much too me. Now I have to let you go and I feel I don't want you. You have been the guiding light in my life." He started crying and somehow, he felt her crying too, she could hear his thoughts to her. "Goodbye My love."